I’m finding it so hard to get up, get washed and dressed today,

I don’t know why, but I’m feeling so grey,

It’s happening more than I thought it would,

I want to go back to bed, perhaps I should.

I’m trying so hard not to cry today,

Feeling so lost, I just can’t find my way,

To my happy place on which I rely,

It’s hiding from me, and I don’t know why.

I’m trying so hard to smile today,

To find something hopeful is what I pray,

To find a reason to push on and to live,

Trying to find something of worth I can give.

I’m trying so hard to hold it together today,

So many nightmares and demons to slay,

Reliving the if only I’d done this or what about that

The anxiety it causes is holding me flat.

I’ve listened to the news today,

So much hate and war that is heading our way,

It shocks me back to living my life,

To put up and shut up and put down the knife.

I saw the joy in the eyes of my grandchild today,

To see her grow is my wish, so I really should stay,

And when I review this life that I’ve had,

I really should be happier, its not been that bad.